Reminiscing my choir days, Mendelssohn's Elijah.
I remember the water flowing gloriously at the end of the piece. Amazing.
Thanks be to God! He laveth the thirsty land.
The waters gather, they rush along! They are lifting their voices!
The stormy billows are high, their fury is mighty.
But the Lord is above them and Almighty.
- Geekily from Pat's iPhone
It's so funny
You keep "losing" your friends as you grow older.
I don't wanna grow old then 
How iPad has changed my life:
On the Plane
And in the Shower!!
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A sucker for sleek interface.
That's why I'll never at all be attracted to Android. Seriously... One look at their OS design would instantly made me lose interest. Well, personally thar's what I feel.
Those getting bored of iPhone generic icons, or ugly 3rd party app icons, lockscreen, overall UI can easily change all those looks through Winterboard, available in Cydia. iPhone Themes are not new to the jailbroken iPhones community but recently there's a race to a better Theme store for iPhone.
So I downloaded the app, browsed around, and found not even ONE decent theme. Most are just too overdone, or too ugly. Nothing simple, elegant (despite their elegant names).
So how does my iPhone currently looks like? Well everything is free and I'm loving it.
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Make your goodness like a fetter—a chain—that binds my wandering heart to you. Seal my heart with an unbreakable bond for the courts of heaven. In other words: Keep me! Preserve me! Defeat every rising rebellion! Overcome every niggling doubt! Deliver from every destructive temptation! Nullify every fatal allurement! Expose every demonic deception! Tear down every arrogant argument! Shape me! Incline me! Hold me! Master me! Do whatever you must do to keep me trusting you and fearing you till Jesus comes or calls
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"Learn to pray. Study the prayers of Scripture. Study the books and biographies of men of prayer. Above all, learn to pray by praying."
- Paul Washer
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It has been sometime since I last had so much thoughts, thoughts that I want to write about, thoughts that I don't wanna waste being distracted away and to redo the whole thinking process again, never learning from mistakes. So here I am, instead of watching TV passively, I put on some instrumental hymns and start writing this post.
I thought about Christmas this morning. Not so much on the meaning of Christmas but more on how I have been spending Christmases. It has been so forgettable each and every year that I barely can recall any good moments. I thought about last year, about two years ago. By the spectacles of a selfish brat, I wanted to complain that I had never had a memorable, good feeling Christmas. And yes, it's true. As I think back, my brain stopped processing, signaling that there's some unpleasant memories there that I'd better not approach anymore.
I would tell the world that I've been through hell at least for the past year. Now I can laugh imagining myself saying that. "You're hell is only that?".
I don't know. It's unfair. It's simply illogical. Maybe if I were to see myself as mean and evil, I would not be thinking all that. Life would just be 'the way it should be'. But no. I happened to see myself perseveringly sacrificing not for the sake of myself. And for that I thought I should gain some merit. I thought that as evil as every human being is, this act of mine should be acknowledged, or be responded well. Or probably, I see myself refraining from my own 'fleshly' desires so much that somehow I lost the sense of self. I became who I thought I wanted to be, but not through gradual growth, transformation. I just pushed and forced myself to be that someone. When deep inside, I'm simply not ready. Even for this, I thought I should earn my merit. Get rewarded.
I forgot what the basis of my faith is. Sola Gratia.
Grace. It's not something that you receive freely, then claim that it's your own hardwork. It's just too wrong.
As John Piper wrote beautifully on one of his blogpost:
This is my confession:
I was born into a believing family through no merit of my own at all.
I was given a mind to think and a heart to feel through no merit of my own at all.
I was brought into the hearing of the gospel through no merit of my own at all.
My rebellion was subdued, my hardness removed, my blindness overcome, and my deadness awakened through no merit of my own at all.
Thus I became a believer in Christ through no merit of my own at all.
And so I am an heir of God with Christ through no merit of my own at all.
Now when I put forward effort to please the Lord who bought me, this is to me no merit at all, because
...it is not I, but the grace of God that is with me. (1 Corinthians 15:10)
...God is working in me that which is pleasing in his sight. (Hebrews 13:21)
...he fulfills every resolve for good by his power. (2 Thessalonians 1:11)
And therefore there is no ground for boasting in myself, but only in God’s mighty grace.
Let him who boasts, boast in the Lord. (1 Corinthians 1:31)
Some say that we human beings like to take things for granted.
I think we are far worse than that.
We are just beings who fail to acknowledge and see that we are just created beings before the Creator. Just like an employee who acts like a boss. Or a slave trying to be master over his own master.
We are not only being "not appreciating". We are much worse. We are disrespecting. We humiliate, insult the Creator. But still, we're unable to move away from the thoughts that... Hey we are not that bad...
I wanna learn to be content, again. And again.
Finding my comfort in the only source of comfort.
- Blogged from my iPad
